Despair

 

Spotlight gleaming brightly on my face,
Thinking back, years fly by, as if it were a race.
It was as if she was the one creating the spotlight,
My hands locked together, suicide, I think I might.

I relax, tilt my head, telescope into the light,
As I blink, for a second it turns dark then suddenly bright.
For a moment I can tell I thought i’ve got you again,
I keep looking, I long for hope, but I start to strain.

Stare as I think, its true, the pain I feel,
I always thought, this would be surreal.
Wherever you are, hope you’re keeping on a smile,
I am nothing to you now, treated me as a used tile.

The magical light gets nearer to my sight,
As it gets closer, it gets darker, darker than night.
You have my blessings my love, my undying bliss,
You will forever be my love, I will never resist.

Confusable harsh heart of mine, its a fusion mess,
I feel it beats a lot slower, the machine in my chest.
I finally close my eyes from the dark and troubling concept,
I shutdown the rest of my senses, and let out my last breath.

Shattered

Little boy, I was once back then,
My father was always there, he was my superman.
People giving me trouble he would always be there,
He’ll always be around me, and just everywhere.

Things I crave, and things I bliss for,
Father would give them to me, without asking anymore.
Times have came where I gave him a headache,
Its okay, he’ll still love me at the end of the day.

Father would always smile, in a unique vivid way,
He would show family and friends, he’s jolly everyday.
Many depended on him, he was the root of the family,
His brothers and sister, he would make them so happy.

His siblings Dearest, Sincerely, Yours, and Truly,
Miss and love my father respectfully.
His brother Forever, join my father into the skies of oblivion,
Where they would both be missed, loved, and never be forgotten.

Rendezvous

Gleaming beautiful red pieces of my heart, I image in my body,
No one to mend them, i’ve departed from society.
Tenderness heart, i’m sorry to be such a fool,
Nevertheless, my uncautioned mind, it treated you so cruel.

Unloving heart, you, there are now pieces of,
I’ll shun you from more harm, i’ll be your glove.
Please give me a forgiveful pardon,
Sincere stupidity is what i’ve done wrong.

Soulful shatters into many weary pieces,
I solemnly swear, I did not intend any of this.
Let passing time heal you thoroughly,
Resting I will be, until you are ready.

Journey, our mission for love has been halted,
Something I did to you, its a guilt I can’t rid.
Please become strong and ready you will be,
I won’t mishap protection, we’ll resume our journey.

Let’s walk into cold oblivion until we fade and vanish,
Foot after foot, steady pace, no rush.
Frightened be not, i’m here for you baby,
Keep walking, hold my hand, it’ll just be you and me.
Trust me, I’ll devote my all to ensure your safety
We can runaway together, and redeem everlasting sweet serenity.

At Rest

She was indeed never meant for me,
For I thrusted myself to her uncautiously.
A sweetful deliberation of affection is what I’ve shared with her,
But nothing came of it good, just pain I couldn’t bare.

She maliciously was the concept of pain,
My Heart broke into millions of pieces I couldn’t maintain.
Shattered millions of pieces, disgraceful she is,
Nothing matters, i’ll never be whole again, I won’t insist.

What did I do to her? Its ravelling me,
I think of her, I roll my fists very unclearly.
How can someone so beautiful, fascinating, and glamorous,
Inside, be such a cold heartless, uncunning, and spiteful bitch.

Still i’ve done nothing wrong, i’m sure,
Can’t believe she left me for another.
She won’t express nor mouth what i’ve unconsiously done,
I demise myself, I question me, “What did i do wrong?”

I devoted my time, money, and love to her.
Ditched my friends, I was always beside her there.
Left my home, to sleep next to she,
Don’t know what I did wrong, I can’t see.

I could not register to myself what it is,
Thoughts of her, i’m having an appetite to miss
I down myself relentlessly and i’ll name me stupid,
For I dearly love her still, despite what she did.