Only Memories..

I sit on the highest hill on the city,
Looking over everything at night, its glittering.
Sparkling city lights, its a soothing image,
I want to join it, but isn’t a sinch.

Gazing over the colorful vivid lights,
Many wonderful and lucky people there resides.
I do not envy them, I have accepted my fate,
But I feel bad, for its there I cannot stay.

Glowing city lights blur, beautifully into the sky,
Spreading its aura, its relieving to the eye.
Passionate I am, nothing, I know I need,
As long as I stare, i’m deliberately free.

Sighting into the sky, I see bursting stars,
Something to speculate about, best from afar.
They dissolve slowly, fade one by one,
Rapidly blinking, they disappeared, s’all gone.

City lights again I look down on,
They fade out, and so I ask what’s wrong?
It hits me, I notice, I’m not really looking at anything,
T’was only happy memories I was dwelling, so I’m missing.

Happiness dies, cause the memories are far away,
I’m an outlaw, I repent, no one beside me to stay.
My life, seekingly just wished this wasn’t all real,
Because frieghtened, and alone, is only what I feel.